When I was living in Paraguay I never thought about the possibility of moving to live where else, nowadays a lot of Paraguayan have migrated to Spain or USA searching for a better li, not because they wanted to leave but because sometimes you have to do what you have to do and search to build a better future
While living there it was not an option for me, my family was there, I went to law school and graduated, I had a law office and worked there with a lot of enthusiasm the first years and more disappointed with the “law” and the system the last years I lived there
In my days on the court or ministries I just came across with some ignorant and corrupt people that made me realize that the lack of education even in well “educated people” is limited to their own greed and pursue of power, Paraguay is the country of “friends” and “recommendations” if you are cousin of the friend of the uncle of the niece of the girlfriend of some politician or supreme court member you have a possibility of getting a promotion or something you may want, but if you are honest and hardworking that doesn’t count in the country of “friends”.
But my childhood was very happy, I lived in Ciudad del Este until 12 years, then my family moved to Asuncion, I went to Goethe school, a German school, (because my mom is german) I had friends and freedom, even though we had freedom we felt safe, we never did anything wrong, not drugs, alcohol or cigarettes for me, and I’m very happy about the way my parents educated me, with tons of advices I never got in trouble.
I can recall that our access to the world outside Paraguay was limited, we were like in a bubble, in a city that at the time was more like a town, where teenagers were crazy about music, at the time there was no cd just cassettes and LPs and there was a place in Asuncion called Walhala where they sold Cassettes, Lps and later CDs, where teens went to pick up the songs they liked from the Lps and Carlos (the owner) would record them in a cassette, that was our only access to get a little touch from outside, and of course some movies that arrived in Paraguay months or even years after their premiers in USA or Europe.
Looking back it still amazes me, we were so happy with so little.
Growing up there was wonderful for me, we went to school, we were happy hanging around with our friends all the time, we didn’t have a car, we walked a lot, took the bus and eventually my brother had a car borrowed from my mom and took me and my friends to places, we had ice creams at some of the few places available, hijacked, played pool and bowling (I still enjoy doing that while in Paraguay).
It was definitely a peaceful environment, and looking back I notice that I couldn’t be happier, I would do it all over again if I had to live again, and I think that being able to say that, means that I had lived my life intensely and big part of that is thanks to my parents, thanks to the trust they gave me, thanks to their advices and education, and I’m so happy that they didn’t forbidden me to do things I enjoyed according to my age.
Now, sometimes when I listen to some songs that remind me of that years of my life, the things I did, the now unforgettable friends I had and still have, the person that I was, the joy I had, the tears and the smiles of those days, all those experiences made me the person I’m today, for good or for bad every moment is unique and has to be lived in an intense way, those times will never come back, neither these I’m living today in my own eternal present.
I have learned to enjoy every unique moment called present (like a gift), the past is already gone, from time to time I’m able to retrieve some memory stored in some part of my mind, and sometimes I find myself smiling while remembering some crazy stuff I did
My now present will become a past someday and I hope to refer to it with so much affection as I refer to my memories of growing up in Paraguay.